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Monday, November 28th, 2005
10:42 am
Snotties in my belly?
My first wedding ever went very well. I slowdanced with my uncle, it was kute. It was all fun and games until I started to feel sicky from drinking too much. Puking in a stall at a country club while your cousin is getting married and you are wearing a very nice outfit is surely no fun. Also calling up your boyfriend ( who you do not really talk about marriage seriously with yet) at 1 30 am to tell him you want to marry him, and name off ushers and bridesmaids is not a good idea.

Everything is going pretty good overall, I guess. Nothing too exciting. The "HELLp Weekend" is coming up! WOOOOOOOO get ready girls!!!!! Michelle cut her hair. She looks like a grownup. I don't think I am going to let her graduate...EVER!!!!!!

I heart everyone. Especially Alpha Sigma Tau and 314 C...Fallout Boy I am still on the fence about. I finished my first Directed Study paper, going to see Bill after to pass it in. I get butterflies in my tummy when I call him Bill. Oh my.

Bj is just fine. Sometimes I think I would like Mr Heebs better...but at least Bj knows what Greek Delegate is. Haha, just kidding....? He is working his 573285793287 hours a week now, which means I pretty much dont have a boyfriend for this month. I am currently taking applications for a substitute for the month of december....criteria: taller than me, sweet, funny, likes michelle and kellie and cats...and not weight 7003 pounds!


Here is my new favorite song: it sort of reminds me of Beej because I am always the one telling him I have a crush on him, I'm the one who has to chase him...and he plays Zoo Tychoon ohhhhhhh my

Be Mine by David Gray
From the very first moment I saw you
That's when I knew
All the dreams I held in my heart
Had suddenly come true
Knock me over stone cold sober
Not a thing I could say or do
Cause baby when I'm walking with you now
My eyes are so wide
Like you reached right into my head
And turned on the light inside
Turning on the light
Inside my mind... yea...

Come on baby it's all right
Sunday Monday, day or night
Written blue on white it's plain to see
Be mine, be mine!
Rainy shiny, night or day
What's the difference anyway
Honey till your heart belongs to me

If I had some influence girl
With the powers that be
I'd have them fire that arrow at you
Like they fired it right at me
Maybe when your heart and soul are burning
You might see
That everytime I'm talking with you
It's always over too soon
That everyday feels so incomplete
Till you walk into the room
Say the word now girl
I'll jump that moon... yea...

Come on baby it's OK
Rainy shiny, night or day
There's nothing in the way now
Don't you see
Be mine, be mine!
Winter summer, day or night
Centigrade or Fahrenheit
Baby till your heart belongs to me
Be Mine, Be Mine
Thursday Friday, short or long
When you got a love so strong
How can it be wrong now mercy me
Be Mine, Be Mine
Jumpin' Jesus holy cow!
What's the difference anyhow
Baby till your heart belongs to me

Current Mood: accomplished
Monday, November 21st, 2005
7:12 pm
Oh Jen, I love you so much...you appreciate all of my current affiars.



Oh, sugar were going down swinging!
6:22 pm
stolen from bren
Top 3 Dead People I Would Kill to Sleep With:

1. Clark Gable
2. James Dean
3. Fred Astaire

Top 3 Old People Who I Would Still Have Major Sex With:

1. James Taylor
2. Steve Shea
3. I'm not telling


I didn't like the last part, so I left it out!

Are you asking me to be your mistress????
Monday, November 14th, 2005
6:26 pm
Beautiful Old Song
The words had all been spoken
 And somehow the feeling still wasn't right
And still we continued on through the night
 Tracing our steps from the beginning
Until they vanished into the air
 Trying to understand how our lives has led us there
 Looking hard into your eyes There was nobody I'd ever known
 Such an empty surprise to feel so alone
 Now for me some words come easy
 But I know that they don't mean that much
 Compared with the things that are said when lovers touch
You never knew what I loved in you
 I don't know what you loved in me
 Maybe the picture of somebody you were hoping I might be
Awake again I can't pretend and I know I'm alone
 And close to the end of the feeling we've known
How long have I been sleeping
How long have I been drifting alone through the night
 How long have I been dreaming I could make it right
 If I closed my eyes and tried with all my might
To be the one you need
Awake again I can't pretend and I know I'm alone
 And close to the end of the feeling we've known
How long have I been sleeping
How long have I been drifting alone through the night
 How long have I been running for that morning flight
Through the whispered promises and the changing light
 Of the bed where we both lie
Late for the sky



This song is an old song by Jackson Browne. It rules. It really sad, and just about how one day you'll look at the person you are with and not see them anymore, and then it's just over. No fun.I  bolded my favorite two lines in the whoooooooooooooooole thing. I am sure that when Gerard breaks my heart, I will listen to it and cry and eat a lot of chicken fingers. Until then, I am content to hug him and love him and have him pick me up from work! Lastnight Meesh, Kel and I watched Cinderella.....the sweetest story ever told. Oh well, I guess I better get back to working hard at the ole front desk here!!!!!!!

Current Mood: calm
Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
3:05 pm
Cry me a river
In those days,
we finally chose
to walk like giants
& hold the world
in arms grown strong with love
& there may be many things we forget
in the days to come,
but this will not be one of them.






She said she usually cried at least once each day not because she was sad, but because the world was so beautiful & life was so short.


both are so true

Current Mood: curious
Saturday, November 5th, 2005
6:45 pm
Everyone is at the Simple Plan concert or at Marshall's. By everyone I mean Kellie and Michelle. I am going to dinner with SARAH AND STEVE AND GERARD in about an hour or so.
Let me do some damage control before I talk about this next thing...
1) I am not saying I want to get married now.
2) I am not saying I am with the man I am going to marry so don't flip out BJ.
3) I am not saying I am even anywhere near being ready to be married FOREVER to someone.
But...
Kellie and I have been talking a lot about getting married( to each other and to Michelle). Two of the girls I work with at the Centers For Learning are engaged. They are my age. So Kellie and I look online while I'm at work at engagement rings because it's good to be prepared I guess...Kel wanted at $30,000 one. I have done some looking on my own in the past few days because I have no life and I found an amazing antique one for $45,000. Hmmmmm...somehow I do not think that I will be receiving that from anybody ever. Kellie and I sat down and figured out how much money our boyfriend Gerard should put away every week to save up for a nice ring for us (yes Kellie, Michelle, and I all date him). It was a lot, and would have taken a long time. I told him about it and I think he wanted to punch me for saying it. He didn't though. He waited for a few days and then pushed me off my bed onto a humidifier(OK, I was trying to give him a wetwillie buuuuuuuuuuuut still) grrrrrrrr...<3 Does anyone ever just want to be a grownup? Even if it's just to see where you end up. I would like to know if this english thing is going to work out in the long run. Also I would like to see who I am going to end up. So maybe I could break Gerard's heart or something. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Will I ever live with 314 C in a real place? If so, can I have a cat? I don't think so...but I love them!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHO WANTS TO RUN AWAY WITH ME RIGHT NOW??? LET"S PACK A BAG AND GO!!!!!

Current Mood: distressed
Friday, November 4th, 2005
10:05 am
I think it's an english thing...
Solsbury Hill
Climbing up on Solsbury Hill
I could see the city light
Wind was blowing, time stood still
Eagle flew out of the night
He was something to observe
Came in close, I heard a voice
Standing stretching every nerve
Had to listen had no choice
I did not believe the information
[I] just had to trust imagination
My heart going boom boom boom
"Son," he said "Grab your things,
I've come to take you home."

To keepin' silence I resigned
My friends would think I was a nut
Turning water into wine
Open doors would soon be shut
So I went from day to day
Tho' my life was in a rut
"Till I thought of what I'd say
Which connection I should cut
I was feeling part of the scenery
I walked right out of the machinery
My heart going boom boom boom
"Hey" he said "Grab your things
I've come to take you home."
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Solsbury Hill
Climbing up on Solsbury Hill
I could see the city light
Wind was blowing, time stood still
Eagle flew out of the night
He was something to observe
Came in close, I heard a voice
Standing stretching every nerve
Had to listen had no choice
I did not believe the information
[I] just had to trust imagination
My heart going boom boom boom
"Son," he said "Grab your things,
I've come to take you home."

To keepin' silence I resigned
My friends would think I was a nut
Turning water into wine
Open doors would soon be shut
So I went from day to day
Tho' my life was in a rut
"Till I thought of what I'd say
Which connection I should cut
I was feeling part of the scenery
I walked right out of the machinery
My heart going boom boom boom
"Hey" he said "Grab your things
I've come to take you home."
<Back home.>

When illusion spin her net
I'm never where I want to be
And liberty she pirouette
When I think that I am free
Watched by empty silhouettes
Who close their eyes but still can see
No on taught them etiquette
I will show another me
Today I don't need a replacement
I'll tell them what the smile on my face meant
My heart going boom boom boom
"Hey" I said "You can keep my things,
they've come to take me home."
Friday, October 28th, 2005
11:07 pm
Lists, lists, lists...and some bondage.

I want to move to the south because:

1. You can wear flip flops all year round.

2. Sweaters and jackets are optional.

3. Sunshine makes people tan/happy.

4. You can go skinny dipping outside in November.

5. You could have a Halloween cookout.

6. You would never have to shovel snow.

7. You would never have to cancel plans because of a blizzard or put "weather permitting" on an invitation (MOST of the time).

8. You hands would not be cold from early October until late April.

9. You would never have to drive in an ice storm.

10. You would never get a rash all over your face because of the cold weather.

11. I could be a Southern Belle and have little southern babies.

 

Things that make me mad right now:

1. An unannounced bad mood.

2. Boys.

3. Loud music next door.

4. The quarter game.

5. Making my own stupid timeline for my Directed Study.

6. Realizing today that a Directed Study is a lot of work.

7. I didn't see Debbie.

8. The man of my dreams is married.

 

Things I love right now:

1. Wayne and Garth and sexy kitties and priests.

2. Boones.

3. Sweaters.

4. A bed all to myself.

5. Friends from home/cousins.

6. My roomate

 

 

Basically lastnight was amazing.Wayne and Garth was clearly the best idea in the world. Excpet that we looked ugly. I threw up at O pi...not a big deal to most people, but everyone knows I am a baby and never drink enough to throw up. Luckily my darling beautiful Krisi came to my rescue and after helping me pee outside, called Jsal to bring me home. Beta Xi also assisted in the escort. Everyone loved us. We rule a WHOOOOLE lot.

I'm in a bad mood right now and I don't know why. I don't feel like myself ...RIGHT NOW. Who am I becoming? Cybersex Debbie? I hope not.Maybe all the keystone is turning me into a monster, who knows. Speaking of sex, Rev. Gerard and I had some type of weird encounter lastnight when we were both drunk. I'm not really sure what happened. I feel as though some sort of bondage was involved. We both have very weird, very disturbing cuts/scrapes/bruises/sore muscles/bite marks/hickies. I wish I remembered more of what happened. At least it was with a boyfriend though and not some random person from the library...or alt. Now that would be awkward. ...not that it's not awkward that he had his PRIEST costume on. He said that I made him take off his collar and rosary beads. I am glad that my morals have not sunk that low. I trust Gerard though, so I guess that's good. At least I know he wouldn't hurt me or anything. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha my life gets more and more upsetting each passing day...ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh debbie where are you? I feel as though she could make everything alright. Either that or some Velveeta, but given the fact that we do not own a microwave, I'll just sit and wait for my debbiepie <3 we are so stupid but i LOVE every minute of it!! <3

Current Mood: bitchy

Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
11:51 am
The cyber sex lady is sitting across from me. I think she knows something is up. Lets catch this nymphobitch!

Current Mood: devious
Monday, October 24th, 2005
11:07 am
Can we please talk about something?
I am aggravated with people. Stop trying to look smart, most of the time you're wrong. I don't know if it's because of how grammar is taught now or something, but lately it seems to me everyone under the freaking sun always puts "___ and I". I know that I do not know a lot about english and am probably the worst person to ask/give advice about things, but this one has been bugging me for a long time. I am going to clear it up to the live journal world right now....
In a sentence like "Krisi and I went to the store today", I is correct because if Krisi didn't go with me I still would say "I went to the store". I wouldn't say "Me went to the store". In that case, if you take the other noun or pronoun (the names or he,she,etc) out and I sounds ok then use I.

In the sentence "This is a picture of Paul and me at Fenway Park" you say me because if Paul wasn't there then you wouldn't say "This is a picture of I at Fenway Park". See what I did? I took the extra out and left it with just me and figured out the correct one to use.

I'm sure that there are exceptions to this rule, so don't flip out and get pissed if you do something and then it's wrong. However I am SO CONFIDENT in this matter that that is how I am going to teach it when I am a teacher.
Take the extras out and see what fits. It might take like 2 seconds, but it's better than look retarded. Thanks. Class dismissed

Current Mood: aggravated
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
9:15 am
Me and My GIrl
Gerard used to keep a livejournal. I started mie to be better than him. I guess I won because he doesn't do it anymore. However, I was looking back at all his old entries from when we first met and in them are all kinds of sweet things like "I watched a dumb movie tonight only because I like Scarlett" and things like "I heard Scarlett was sad and I went to cheer her up" and when he got kicked out of Leitch for stupid reasons, he wrote hoe he missed me. It made me excited and remember how sweet we were to eachother. And then it made me think about how I still have just as much of a crush on him. I know we disagree and dont have sleepovers or see eachother a lot, but he still gives me butterflies in my tummy wheneeeeeeeeeever I see him. A year and a half later<3 I found this entry from FEBRUARY 20, 2004!!!! SO LONG AGO!!!! From the night we met...keep in mind, I didn't know Michelle then at all...it was before we started pledging:

"...also met this cool girl named Michelle, I've always wanted to date a gal named Michelle, after that Guns and Roses song, 'Her daddy works in porno now that her mother's gone....' She lives exactly two floors above me, so I'll have to stop by and talk to her sober sometime."

WE MET GERARD AT THE SAME TIME!!! WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT....upon further questioning, we discovered that Michelle and Gerard took a picture together that night. I feel that that whole thing makes me relatipnship with Michelle a little more firm...WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I LOVE MICHELLE AND GERARD SO MUCH <3

Current Mood: amused
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
11:11 pm
i want a tuna sandwhich
Things I hate:
1. People who have make outrageous claims about things that really have NO IDEA what they are talking about
2. People who act like they know everything about everything all the time
3. People who act like money is the greatest thing in life...it's not, love is.
4. Make up work.
5. Not being able to climb into the escort van.
6. Not being able to drive.


Things I love:
1. Sisters who know what's up.
2. Motzarella sticks.
3. Ribboning.
4. My body pillow.
5. The names Claire and Henry.
6. Gerard a lot lately.
7. Tinkerbell, Greenbean, Caridad, Kwagmire, Big Green, and Lars.


I guess we are safe as long as what I love outweighs what I hate<3

Current Mood: geeky
12:19 am
I LOVE LITTLE LARS
Tonight we had a super secret ceremony with the boys across the hall. They rule! Here is a little fun survey for everyone to read about me and love!!!!!



TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Caridad
Birthday: in 1985 which means im not 21 so life still sucks
Birthplace: LAWTOWN
Current Location: Lowell
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Blondes do it betterrrrr
Height: like 5 10
Right Handed or Left Handed: life as a lefty is hard i will admit
Your Heritage: I am an American
The Shoes You Wore Today: Flip Flops
Your Weakness: beer and mean boys
Your Fears: BTK attacking me and Kel
Your Perfect Pizza: tripoli
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: raise my gpa to like 3.3 and STOP fighting with Gerbear
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: hahahahahhahahahahahahahah
Thoughts First Waking Up: "What time is it?What is my plan for the day? Let's get moving on the first step"
Your Best Physical Feature: smile maaaaaaaaaybe
Your Bedtime: usually around 11 30/ 12 but lately LATE night aka 2 or 3
Your Most Missed Memory: super secret ceremony with sig taus from across the hall....and another good one would be getting asked to leave suppas with tinkerbell a few years ago because we were too drunk
Pepsi or Coke: ginger ale
MacDonalds or Burger King: mcchicken
Single or Group Dates: group but only if its with michelle hahaha
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: i only like hot tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: softserve twist with jimmies
Cappuccino or Coffee: Ice Coffee with skim milky
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: i try to not a lot
Do you Sing: hell yes
Do you Shower Daily: Yes
Have you Been in Love: yes sir
Do you want to go to College: im trying to get out!
Do you want to get Married: yes i wanna be a little trophy wife
Do you belive in yourself: with certain things yes, others no never
Do you get Motion Sickness: yes i cannot even drive in the car with bella without getting sick
Do you think you are Attractive: sometimes
Are you a Health Freak: haaaaaaa
Do you get along with your Parents: no
Do you like Thunderstorms: only when i have someone to snuggle with
Do you play an Instrument: no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yea probably more than any other beverage
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: drugs are for thugs
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: not a box but a couple
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: EEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
In the past month have you been on Stage: noway dude, thats all betsy and taryn
In the past month have you been Dumped: yea gerard and i broke up and i didnt tell anyone...just kidding!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no i dont think i ever have....
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: i dont even know how to answer that one
Ever been called a Tease: i am not the tease in the relationship here
Ever been Beaten up: in 5th grade...i never told anyone that ever
Ever Shoplifted: no im too scared
How do you want to Die: while im on drugs and dont feel anything
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: high school english teacher and a mom and a wifey
What country would you most like to Visit: i like lawrence, sometimes methuen
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Blue
Favourite Hair Color: Blonde
Short or Long Hair: longISH...lets not go crazy now though
Height: tall
Weight: i think i could love someone no matter what as long as it wasnt extreme
Best Clothing Style: preppppppppppppppppppppppppppppy
Number of Drugs I have taken: i had morphine once but nothing like heroine
Number of CDs I own: um a lot my favorite one is kellies with wild horses on it
Number of Piercings: just ears
Number of Tattoos: none too scared
Number of things in my Past I Regret: not following my heart at certain points...and sometimes i am too predictable....i wish i could have been more spontaneous sometimes

Current Mood: ecstatic
Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
11:11 am
"Im incompetent, alright? I'm incompetent"



...oh man lets go cyber across the hall or some prostitutes or something

Current Mood: amused
Saturday, October 8th, 2005
1:17 am
We've hit a rut
Akward moments fill our lives. Sometimes I feel like that's all we have.

Current Mood: depressed
Thursday, October 6th, 2005
12:08 pm
This song really doesn't have to do with anything in my life right now at all. Bren put it on a cd he made me to cheer me up. It worked. I'm in love (with the cd...haha). So here it is for everyone to look at at download and read and cry. Or maybe just me and Kellie will cry...

"Love Ridden" by Fiona Apple

Love ridden I've looked at you
With the focus I gave to my birthday candles
I've wished on the lidded blue flames
Under your brow
And baby I wished for you
Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed
And I wanna crawl in with you
But I cry instead
I want your warm
But it will only make me colder when it's over
So I can't tonight, baby

No, not "baby" anymore, if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave

My hand won't hold you down no more
The path is clear to follow through
I stood too long in the way of the door
And now I'm giving up on you

No, not "baby" anymore, if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave

No, not "baby" anymore, if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave

Current Mood: sore
Thursday, September 15th, 2005
10:41 am
Does anyone except for Kellie want to slow dance in the rain with me today?

Current Mood: lonely
4:50 am
WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Day one of work and my coworkers hate my guts. I am too cool for them all anyway. Pffffffffftttttt.

Ps "I was angry and accidentally cut myself in the neck with a knife...leave me alone"

Current Mood: akward
Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
3:21 pm
So true
I promise you not a moment will be lost as long as I have heart & voice to speak & we will walk again together with a thousand others & a thousand more & on & on until there is no one among us who does not know the truth: there is no future without love.

I think that this is really true. I've been pretty upset lately about a lot of things. But the one thing I'm not upset about it that I have the best friends and sisters anyone could ask for. Thanks for loving me so much and putting up with all my shit. Thanks for loving me no matter how neurotic and planned my life has to be.And if I want to shower at 8 and its 8 04 I start to sweat. Thanks for loving me even if I drink beer from a walmart pumpkin. No matter how stupid I am...you guys always love me. <3 thanks.
Monday, September 12th, 2005
11:57 am
so true
She said she usually cried at least once each day not because she was sad, but because the world was so beautiful & life was so short.
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